Patience Knows No Limit

My finite mind amuses me as I try to discern the Lord's will in my life...when the Lord is ever infinite. I have no idea what the Lord would have me do with my life right now, and I do not see a light at the end of any tunnel for me to make decisions. One conclusion I made, God is teaching me patience. He has every right to do so considering I was so sure I had better patience than anyone I know. The Lord proved me wrong...

But it is more than just patience, it is real patience. It isn't the patience you ask from a child who anxiously wants to eat their food or open a gift. They know what they want and have to use mere patience to control themselves from jumping after it too soon. No, it is a real patience that comes from waiting in the unknown. I do not know what I want out of life; I cannot jump after anything too soon.

I do know that the desire of my heart is to do the Lord's will. So, I come to another conclusion: God is teaching me to truly rest in His will. It is so easy to say, "Only by the Lord's will" or "Lord willing, such-and-such will happen." But I have to say, living those words genuinely is not so easy when I feel like I have been drowning in the unknown for so long. But I have learned; patience knows no limit. Like the Lord, patience is infinite, and I will never have complete patience in my finite self. Still, the Lord teaches...stretches...breaks...

Yes, I may not be getting a lot of good-paying work theses days. Yes, my relationships are overwhelmingly confusing. Yes, I struggle, just like the rest of mankind, with sin. However, God gives me hope. My loving Heavenly Father King, gives me too much to be thankful for in my life, hopeful blessings of love:

I have a roof over my head and parents willing to take care of me as long as need be,
I do get work every now and then (which is better than none at all),
I have a wonderful array of brothers and sisters through Christ that I love so dearly,
I get to spend most of my time with kids (trust me, it is most rewarding),
Jesus Christ has washed away all my sins; therefore, when I fall so short of the Lord's perfection, I can easily get right back up asking for His forgiveness and trying once more to follow His sovereign will.

He knows what He is doing. He created it all: the earth, oceans, skies, trees and plants, animals and people (all so unique)! All by His spoken word, He created it. This is my God!! Whom shall I fear?! Of what shall I be afraid?! The unknown is frightening for my finite mind, but the infinite Lord of all came to earth and suffered so that I might never fear again. I owe it to Him to persevere and continue to rest in His will.

This is quite refreshing. Maybe this blog thing has its merit.

Be at rest, once more, O my soul,
For the Lord has been good to you.
(Psalm 116:7)